Trainer

I have been training with my son, who is a personal trainer. The first few days have been grueling. He is relentless. On Saturday, he said something that reminding me of all my weight loss venture. " Why do you give up so easy. Oh my now I have to do more soul searching to fiqure out that answer. Needless to say, he is working me so hard that I have lost 8lbs in five days. I am focus and will to stop the binge eating,

A long weekend

Labor day weekend is here and that means summer is over. Wow, where did it go. Well a long weekend for me could be potetial dangerous. Lot's of time on my hands.

One day at a time

It has been three weeks since I appeared on the Dr. Oz show. Prior to that, I had a secret that only I knew. I am a binge eater. Wow, saying that out loud is liberating, yet scary. I have secretly eaten my entire life to different degrees. Now at 46, I have reached out for help with this insane disorder. Believe me, I was and still am desperate to cure myself. I don't know how to stop eating. This time I am looking deep to find the answer and solve the issues of my binge eating. My entire life I have been surrounded by people who have issues with food. Many people in my family are morbidly obese including myself. My father's family has issues with not getting enough food. ( but if you ask them they say no but explain to you in their own story of not getting their share) My mother's family frowned on being fat and was constantly reminded that daddy doesn't like fat little girls. So, really did I have a chance of being a normal weight. Probably not. My siblings struggle with their own demons as well. Weight has been an issue for me since I was able to choose, purchase, and prepare my own food. I grown up in a house where my father was always on a diet. ( at least that's how I perceived it.) I secretly ate as a child.

So what makes a forty-six year old woman go on national TV and reveal to the world that I eat secretly. First, I would say desperation. My health has greatly diminished in the past coulple of years and I need to address this now. So this is where my story actually begins. Thorough daily bloggs, I hope to pin point my eating disorder and make it valid. My name is Lisa Porzadek and I am a binge eater.